crud cruder than crusted crap...ohgr dancer

Lame story but to commemorate that I danced for Oghr, not that he'd give a naked rats ass...it was fun regardless of my cuntiness. had a decent turn out...The musik was fuckin ill at some points, especially Adam X spinning industrial. I danced like I haven't in a while (pfft the night before). Actually I found myself articulating moves I haven't seen in such a long time, with such steady detail (acid tweek acid tweek Tweek acid! but i was sober this time). As the whole room oogled, my body told some demonic story of possesion...not that anyone saw that, I was just some weird flaimin' asian girl sessy dancin.Later as I was tailin Carly out for a cig. I saw anthony and a quick sharp anger busted outa me, as I was denied drink tickets, I fucking screamed at him "Dood I work my ASS off for fucking NOTHING". n made a dramatic exit in front of a lot of people namely some of the SP team.mind me, I went there knowing very well that I wouldn't get any sort of compensation. It was more of a favor to Anthony...I just felt the need to vent after being gawked at & grabbed by nasty men, and being used as kibble for the kibbling masses of blackend clove smoking souls.(gave a type of apologetic gesture later.) People and the all mighty "promoters" don't understand that a this IS work I am servicing a need, with purpose, without girls like us, it winds up being nothing short of a jr. high wall flower sock hop. And it seriously was until I got up on the go-go box under the spotlight...wandering uneasy eyes now had something interesting to watch and feel ok about being flailing white people with no rhythm...(it's ok man she distracts everyone "i can dance too" kinda thing) There were these two girls (sweet i'm sure), I was yelling about, they took over the go-go box with out asking and were generally shity dancers. I was told to just go kick em off..I explained that I let them do it because it's the only thing they've got to feel included (hypocritical are we?), one of them over heard me...I didn't even feel bad. I should be pommeled and made to lick the armpits of despair. I'm not this mean but I get a little fed up sometimes and if you're in the crossfire...pft good luck with the feelings part.I was bitching outside for a minute, got ten bux outa the other promoter and went on my merry way to battle one of those late raver stcragglers who just started the whole "rave" thing...bleh how'd they get in, fuck wads need a skooling or two.the beginning of some sort of end. i'm losing a sense of real purpose...again. i just need a squeeze a main squeeze mein. hrmf. You're flattered by someone's attention, but their intensity might make you feel a little self-conscious. But hey, you really are fabulous -- bask in it while you evaluate their other qualities honestly. It'll take an army of details to hold you back, so get busy brushing them out of your way one by one. You've got the patience and you've got the brainpower, so work it on out.You don't need anyone who's merely second-best. You've done second-best and you know you can do better. So hold out. Someone who's really top-notch will come along. month love?You're in the mood to love 'em and leave 'em on the 1st and 2nd. Whether you actually do that is another story. Certain chickens come home to roost between the 3rd and 8th. If you once hurt somebody, he or she is slow to trust again. Gamblers are at a disadvantage on the weekend of the 5th when someone else holds all the cards. Of course, there's still the ace of hearts that you pull out of your sleeve on the 9th or 10th, but aren't you a little too mature for this kind of emotional thrill seeking? Maybe not, especially if someone is kissing and telling on the 12th or 13th. A little reputation adjustment seems to work in your favor. From the 14th through 25th you're all charm and subtle pressure. But after the 17th you're looking for more than just satisfaction and another feather in your cap. Between the 19th and 22nd there are hopes and whispers about long-term partnership. From here it looks like your own personal summer of love. Passionate couples stub their toes on core issues around the 27th, but the healing lasts well beyond the hurt. Emphasize your undying commitment on the 29th.