intence bacon

I haven't eatin meat in a week or two and I didn't eat at all yesterday. So my body was screaming "Sustenance!" so I figgered on a jr.bacon cheeze booger (ya know, the five food groups: bread cheese meat lettuce tomato mayo). I've always been able to finish a booger or two, but I could barely eat half of this one...Ok so I might be a little anorexic lately but I do eat once a day, at least, 'cept yesterday...hey man give me money for SEF the "Save Eeah Foundation" then maybe I'll eat more than cawffee and trail mix.Anyshit,The Batcave was fun as it gets after key bumps and drinks, dry humped carly in front of every one woot! a full 15 secs, what a lady...my she's tawll. Aquired another stalker. Danced Danced Danced to actual industrial not none of this synthpop shit.um acquired another wierdo obsesso freak...uh anna tell your roommate i'm a BIG FAT HAIRY DYKE n I don't shave my upper lip. I have an offer to move to LA for a month to be in a documentry, free room n board with 19 other artists in a downtown LA warehouse...Well we're in the email taggin part of it right now so I shouldn't jinx it. BACUUUUNNN!I've tuned out my 6th sense, the lack of sanity for fuck sakes I need a break. The problem was always that I didn't know how to turn it off...now that I've found that switch, I can't switch it on at will...loose wiring, I guess.

th' word insipid, keeps poopin in muh head

Whew! I'm a bizzy gurl this week!Tonight:I have a hip hop dance audtion at B Lo's...then I'm hoppin ova to tha Batcave. Sunday:I'm Dancing & performing for Mythadral at the Skinny Puppy after party.Monday:work a crap day job.It's funny I have an audtion in hollywood that I can't make. A Burlesque audition! Rather, I'm here in NY & will be fitted & rehersing for a fashion show, they pay after 4 shows...ugh I need money like yesterday, they want to use me again the next week, so I'll stick to it.Tuesday:Fashion ShowWednesday:I have an audtiotion at Crobar, that I have yet to prepair for...Thursday:Honey will be landing here.Friday:crap day jobI had something friggin if i can remember. Sometime during the week I'm in a Video for "Just Landed" some wierd space band with elaborate costumes...this is just all fine n dandy...but i want spiffy n neato.eh.my ugly boots..."hey you shouldn't be wearin those boots! It's summer now!"(yet another) SUV idiot shouts."hey I'll pretend I didn't hear that! Ugly people shouldn't give fashion advice!"I retorted.yeah I look silly, the more people hate on my boots the more I want to wear'em...INSIPID.

slander

Slander!

deadly-rays-of-stupid/ Whack Job dream

My brain is all swelt up in this heat. i can't eat sleep or think.i throwed up last night after 4 coronas @ NYC aggressions found that i don't mind being a dom.well, after 4 coronas.i was a guy running from mobsters with guns.it was like watching myself in a movie.running in a dark ally, i leaped under a car to hide, i could see the guys searching under the cars. I started to burrow into the dirt.(this is where it gets wierd) the big bald guy crawled in then the dirt turned into my bed spread, I held my breath. The bald dood layed on his back on top of me, and sarted whackin off and saying "gawd I hope thats not you cilene dion, GAWD I HHope thats not you Celine Dion" In the midst of the "whack job" I grabbed his gun a slender black 9mm semi-automatic (found the exact pic), but I morphed into Michelle Rodriguez held him against a wall, aimed point blank at his stomach, thought about it and totally missed, then the guy i was before came up from behind, grabbed the gun and it was me again, i shot the bald dood very swiftly and specifically in 3 pressure points both his shoulders /armpit area and one groin /inner thigh area. cz 100 9mm i distinctly remembered the specs...odd. The morphing into different interacting characters, is from what I recall, new. It seems that would be symbolic of how I cope & deal with things in life. I handled the situation in the end, I stopped what I was running from (odd that it was a guy jacking off um can't pin point that symbolism could be many things). One facet of me was bold enough but thought too much to finish, another facet an unemotional one, had to step in and efficiently take care of it with out thinking. The 3 pressure points seemed important...(Interesting, I was so curious I looked it up: vital pressure points in the armpits..."The Death Touch" in martial arts. I didn't know that.)

squirrel wrassling, kibbling & quibbling

i crawled into bed with a girl named darryl wearing a legwarmer on her head and anna, kinda twisted into each other like where does that leg lead to. WOOT! half nekit sweaty chicks, naw unfortunately nuffin happened, we're just the crackheads goin to bed @ 7am. woke up to shouting weirdos and car alarms in this wretched heat. i felt the need to walk, so i walked across the williamsberg bridge, lots of junk to think about.i stink like dirt, my feet are killin me. i have no appetite, i haven't for a week. gettin scrawny, a steady diet of nuts, berries & fruit any wonder i smell like dirt.watched squirrels wrassle in union square for a bit. picked up some money, still not hungry enough to eat, maybe i'll treat myself to harry potter, i enjoy movies much more when i'm alone i generally like being alone actually i obsses about it sometimes.i'm so uninspired, stagnant comes droning in like a three tined cataclysmic fuzz.my writing suffers, i'm not attuned to the antiquity of my subconscious, and infinities of speaking universe.can't cry, can't be angry, happy, sad, frusterated. fuck, am i useless and indifferent. name = ÆAH (but people annoyingly can't type Æ so Eeah is fine.)piercings = ears & took out my lebret for the 328 time height= 5 foot nothin.shoe size = 5 1/2-6siblings = a few.[LAST...]movie you watched = Headwigmovie you bought = Deadly China Hero or Brothers Quaysong you listened to = i dunnocd you bought = terrence fixmer cd you listened to = mine.person that's called you = psychically? i don't have a fone.[DO...]you have a crush on someone? = at any given moment no, but sometimes yes, it's a habit.you wish you could live somewhere else = i wish i could live in more than one place at once.you think about suicide = nope.you believe in online dating = i try everything more than i need to.others find you attractive = i guess?you want more piercings = yes orbits in the conch of my earsyou like roller coasters = yep.you write in cursive or print = print & kanji lookin print. depends on the subject[FOR OR AGAINST...]long distance relatiionship: they usually don't work out but i do them anyway.suicide = it's a choice we're capable of making but i don't favor it.people = only the evolution of.smoking = again choice.gay/lesbian relationships: in one respect it's great population control, and who better to work each others units.[HAVE YOU...]ever cried over a boy = noever cried over a girl = yesever lied to some = by accident.ever been in a fist fight = uh. only when i was a kid livin in da ghet'to[WHAT...]shampoo do you use = i don't.shoes do you wear = my cybercowgirl wannabe ugly bootsare you scared of = nothin. literaly.[NUMBER...]of times I have been in love? = lets just say i can't count them on both hands.of times I have had my heart broken? = everytime.of hearts I have broken? = i don't know.of times my name has appeared in the paper? = none.[DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...]pretty = no.funny = only to me.hot = no but kinda sweatyfriendly = when i feel like it.amusing = not the right word.loveable = i guess so. in that "can i put you in my pocket" or "can i take you home and put you on my shelf" annoying kinda way.caring = depends.sweet = sometimes.Cool = definately not.[FAVOURITE...]5 letter word: fuckrActor/actress = don't make me think that hard.Cartoon: invader zim. adult swim. æon flux. ak thats gonna be a long list.Cereal: a bowl of surreal.Chewing gum: the 35cent kindColor(s): Red, teal, silver, mauve. the in between colors.Color nail polish: metalic teal green or blackday of the week: mondayLeast fave day: sundayFlower: venus fly trap (is that flower?)Jelly flavour: scrawberry... i do not think you are ready for this jelly.Jewelery: black jelly braclets i never take off, my salvador dali lookin watch.Summer/Winter: winter.[FUCK this is too long. and dull. points if you scrolled this far][Person who last.. ]Slept in your bed: uhm...devonSaw you cry: dun rememberMade you cry: i'm sure a stoopit cuntYelled at you: samantha Sent you an email: leslie[Have you ever.. ]Said "I love you" and meant it? yes i only say it if i mean itKept a secret from everyone? yep. much of my exisitence here on earth is.Cried during a movie? a long time ago i think.Planned your week based on the TV? no.Been on stage? yes lots.Been to New York? live here.Been to California? third home.Wished you were another gender? yeah as a kid i wanted to be a boy but i've grown to liking my girlness now that i know how to work my parts.What time is it now? 11:14 pmthat was rather tedious. learn anything new?

I repeat assfucking tight jumpsuit!

nothin cures my pooy moods more than reading old entries, well sex & drugs would be good but i ain't got no more drugs n i ain't sexin no goverment cheese."fuck me harder with something gross damn damn damn...more reasons to bitch! i'm not even pmsing what the assfucking hell in a handbag and tight jumpsuit for? damn coke head. never more never more never more. oh the huumaannnitty of it awwlllll!!!!AAGGHHHH ;D"26-6-2003"one minute i love more then the next i love less what the fuck! its that fucking Gemini venus alignment i have...clingy but pushy, clingy but wierdly running away at angle backwards into a stupid pole of DOOM with many personalities squishing out upon impact.eh. i'm so blatenly a schmoo if i weren't me i would date me and wonder "whhyy is your heeaad soo bigg why is it so big" and "talk that crazy squirrel talk baby" to deal with me is like i guess dealing with a sloppy taco a corny crunchy shell with inner many contrasting layers a creamy & cheeze toppings, watery vegginz,then the meaty bottom... ehh ok BAD analygy. again i thought i had a point...but ehhh nope lost it."i want me a PINK TACO!!15 mins left

tragik magik

i woke up curled up on a recliner, to an absolutly love starved white cat with leamur eyes, the lil head butts & kitty squeeks were enough to make anyone ooze with mooshiness, she curled up with me and rubbed her head all over my face. I sorta wanted to cry, this cat felt that wierd emptyness i want to fill. astrologically this is correct. but astrology is like a pot hole you see it and have a choice to walk around or right into it...today i opted for the ridiculous choice. the design of me.